Sunday, June 11, 2006

okay, initially didnt wanted to blog about all the stuffs
cus i didnt wanted others to know.
but after reading tommy's blog, i decided too.


for the first day of camp (thurs), i was feeling rather enthu blahblah.
i was the only sec4 playing the games summore !
and melissa still said "elaine, you zhang bu da arh" LOL.
okay wadever, 1st day was quite alright.



Fri
my mood started to went down.
esp during Kenneth sectionals,
where he said some stuffs ( though not really aiming at me ) but it really hurt me alot.
i felt like, ever since Esther's gone, the bestsection2004 is like slowly being ruined in my hands.
now, the results is showing.
i really failed lah.
at night the perf of my section,
just one sentence from Mr Tan, "the saxophone legend is gone"
enough to make me feel extremely sad.
and while cs was scolding the band later, i was waiting outside, didnt dare to go in!
the whole thing was just too dramatic.
late at night, i waited for Clar at the staircase alone (like a zibi idiot) till like almost 1plus am.
decided not to go home, cus i thought she would be feeling extremely bad too
and of cus, i was feeling lazy too.


Sat
had rehearsal as early as 7am!
couldnt believe almost all the sec4s came this early lah. haa !
parade rehearsal.
alright, the FIRST diulian thing that happened.
i was being called up as the "best cadet" (of cus, its fake one lah)
den i was like super shock.
went up totally CLUELESS.
not even knowing the basic senangdiri and sediya
i tink pick any sec1 out also do 10times better job than me yah!
probably all the jnrs luffing at me.
and clar said i march like i'm catwalking! LOL
budden agn, cant really blame me lah,
the last time i did drills was like 3 yrs ago?
LOL!
during the recollection rehearsal, i was feeling damn pissed.
my face was like, ...
maybe all the stuffs that's happening which made me feel this way.
unexplainable feeling
but still, our recollection turned out much better than i expected
(considering the super little time for us to rehearse)
oh yeah, diulian number2 happened.
the first time i conduct in front of an audience (for Sat Night Fever)
i actually dropped the baton before i could even conduct ( like WTF! )
SIASUAY TO THE MAX LAH.
[yeah, laugh all you want]
after the whole thing,
didnt wanted to cry
till mrtan kajiao-ed me.
his simple sentences enough to make me teared .


to my dearestdearest section:
i'm sorry for wadever that is now,
i know i have done a horrible job
not training a soloist to take after me, not bonding everyone together, not being there for all of you, not understanding blahblahhh.
sometimes, i feel that i'm being taken for granted
but still, i really love all of you okay!
clarissa and ben, i believe u all will do a much better job
no matter wad, jus dun gif up alright ! (:
throughout this 4 yrs of my secondary school life, band and my section has really been a big part of it.


and this are the few ppl i wanna comment too.
ESTHER:
you are the bestest SL anyone cld ever have. and the sweetest snr to me. thanks for being there during those SYF moments.
CLARISSA:
you have become not only jus a jnr to me, but also 1 of my bestest frd ever. thanks for being there during those horrible esplanade times. (i know u are kinda pissed with me yest too.)
SELENA:
though u haf switched to trombone, but i still wun forget all those sec2 times when we will hang out at playground aft practices or sectionals with esther talking our 'xin shi' (;
TOMMY:
seriously, i've got a LONGER LIST THAN YOU HAVE FOR ME on all the bad points okay.
but i'm really lazy to type them out. haa ! though we erm, hated each other since i dunno when yah? but we managed to work together somehow. LOL! but still, i wun forget u as the most zi bi guy ever! hahaa!
MELISSA:
my cutest round ball! LOL. i wun forget those times when u wld call me almost every nite jus to tell me bout ur class stuffs. like we used to be so close then. but shit happens, and things changes. lols. although i scolded u and stuffs, you are still one of my beloved jnr okay! (:


YEAP, that's bout it. my longest post ever.
no matter what, being through all those stuffs,
i still love band and saxophone section! :D

ELAINECHONG ;
11:09 PM

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